Contact: Clayton Bess
Dear Mr. Locke, I think you have a good idea what it is like to be gay. I know that I'm gay, and I'm not bi, but I'm only gay. My boyfriend thinks he's not even bi. He thinks he is straight, but he's lying to himself. I don't know what he is, but if he is only straight, like he keeps saying he is, then what is he doing with me whenever we can get alone to do it?
My dad doesn't know about my boyfriend, but he knows that something is going on. I don't tell him anything. He doesn't say anything to me, not out loud. But I know he knows. And he doesn't like it. But my dad has never liked me anyway. I think he blames me for my mom dying. But how could I do anything about that?
I am hoping to get out of high school and get a job and move away. I can't stand this much longer. But I think I can get through.
I didn't mean to write you any of this. You can go ahead if you want to and put it on your review page. I don't care. But I don't think you should use my real name, please.
P.S. I like your story. I wish I was Chazz. Then I wouldn't be so lonely. I would like to have a boyfriend like Kenny. And I would like to have a brother like Dillon. Dillon is cool, how he just keeps going after the truth. I think that is what I should do, is go after the truth like Dillon does. But it's hard when everyone is lying about everything.
Thanks for writing this story.
I think it's sad that some people have so much trouble accepting other people. I think it is getting better. I think it must be getting better. When you read stories like "A Ghost in Silence" you see into other people's families and into their heads. It's sad. I think about my own mom and dad. I wonder what they would say. I think they would be okay, but we don't talk too much about things like this.
Well, who knows what lies ahead for me. I'm open to life, I think, whatever comes. But are my mom and dad? They seem kind of cut off. Or at least to me. But what do I know? They talk a little about when they were dating, but what do I really know about that? Maybe they don't even know. Who knows?
Thanks, Mr. Bess, for writing this story and sharing it. Or maybe I should call you Mr. Locke? Or maybe Clayton, or maybe Robert? Why did you use a false name anyway? Were you ashamed, or something? Or maybe careful? Was that hard for you? I'll bet it was. But like I say, I don't know much about anything. But thanks, anyway.
I think I'd like to be a writer and get letters from people who read my stories. I think I'll think about that.
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